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But of course. As refreshing as it is to have you physically present it is jarring to see you with that color about you. Though it makes it easier to play the part of dubious allies.

He does not wish for those on the shard to die. Thus he has proclaimed it and myself as murders. Though he is unwilling to see me as a monster, so he's put himself in quite the spot. BARiTONES was very different upon my first day here. Business and rules and none of the comforts of care. He was quite beside himself, and I did believe him a terrible fit for the unit so I did reach out so he would not be beside himself. He fits though, perfectly so, once all of the ceremony and posturing is stripped away. But it is because of that initial kindness that he does have pause.

I had ... hoped it would turn out differently. Too attached I grew. He has not know such tragedy, such suffering as the rest of us. Unmarred by tragedy I had seen a future, a hope in him that I had not held for such a long time. But now I do believe he has the foolish notion is his head to find a different path, and he will get in the way. I still care for him greatly, and I do not wish to hurt him. But our goal remains paramount.

And ever does he care for those of the shards. Perhaps I am simply jealous he does not give such devotion for those we have lost.

[He absently taps the pen against his lower lip as he listens, gaze distant and unfocused.]

His nature is kind and naive. Does it pain you to be rejected by him? But it sounds as if he will not see our point of view, not without breaking that which is a fundamental part of what you care for in him.

What do you intend to do now? Simply treat him gently and dismiss him as a threat? I do not believe him particularly focused on you, and I get the impression his love for you holds, no matter how hurt and confused. Enough not to spill your secrets.

I was not expecting him to agree. Though the words he used were quite --- they did scar deeper than I expected. And this is not his burden to bear. I would not push it on him further.

[He sighs.]

He is attached to the Exarch or at least views him and Auracite with favor. He will not spill my secrets nor will he plot against me. Of this I do not fear. What I do believe will happen is the Exarch and I will back each other into a corner, and he will foolishly jump in.

As for what I intend to do, I do plan to see if I can distance his memory of the confession. I do not intent to bring it up again.

I shall not bring it up with him, and treat him with care.

[There's plenty to meddle with there without actually making it personal to either of them.]

You really did wish to trust him. Or was it loneliness?

Misplaced hope.

Does it bother you still?

I would not have brought it up if the case was otherwise.

I suppose not. How do you feel, then, thinking on it?

Foolish and naive. But there is naught to undo it, but only patch up what remains.

Perhaps you were. But do you regret it? Or would you still favor hope, even if disappointed?

I do. Fond of him I still am, but no. In this instance I do not favor hope.

[He leans his lips against his fingers and closes his eyes, thinking for a while. Empty platitudes are not what he will ever offer. And yet, it is true that hope disappointed, that a betrayal of trust can truly hurt, it's just been so long since he's felt it, it takes him a while to figure out what to say.]

I admire that you had the capacity to place your hope in him. Even if it is a regret to you now. I can offer no solace or comfort, but that I do not believe you were in the wrong to act on your better emotions, even with a bitter outcome.

'Twas wishful thinking on my part. To believe in the possibility of an unsundered soul. They are not and never will be equal to that of our brethren.

Well, perhaps not all. Other gambles I have taken and been rewarded kindly. And that is what we do after all, scheme and plot and plot again when we need to. Failures are bound to happen.

Hm. I do believe you have more belief in mortals than I. Perhaps it comes with your sight. For me it is hard to distinguish them from the abominations.

But in this place it is new territory. Mortals unsundered is not something we have any experience in. Failure is certainly inevitable.

My approach is wrong, as you have noted, as is full faith. So some mix of wariness and hope must be found, that neither of us have the answer to what balance is necessary.

In experiments of trial and error, error is itself a victory, new data.

But emotions are not so clean cut. And it has been long since either of us opened our hearts to wounding. That it grieves you is to be expected.

[Excuse you, Lahabrea. Emet routinely got over attached to some of his children he vetted against each other. Not that he probably admitted this to either him or Elidibus.]

So do watch out for him. I do not wish to see him hurt, but I imagine he will be a hurdle to content with. Five has already agreed to help me with this, but I'd avoid it where possible.

Other than this all this is speculation. Vast new worlds with new experiences. I do hope to glean an idea or two from them if nothing else. It has been a long time since either of us have learned a concept so new and foreign.

[Did he ever know?? Did you ever confess?? But he knows Emet-Selch is soft.]

Oh I have my plans to meddle with him, unconnected to you. They may be somewhat harder now but not much. I'll keep an eye on him.

And yes. That at least is... Quite exciting. I haven't felt so invigorated in years.

I'm quite sure you'll wrap your mind around time travel and multiple timelines faster than I. The theory of it anyway.

And if there are those you wish me to keep distance as you meddle, do keep me informed. With such a small population were are more likely to bump into each other's experiments.

And you as well. If there are those I should not meddle with you had best tell me now.

You know my one exception.

Though a disclaimer I would put on another. Absinthe can handle himself as always, but it has taken no small amount of effort to win his trust. And his trust I do cherish. Do not jeopardize that, Lahabrea. The two of you can bicker all you please, but do keep the splash damage to a minimum.

I see. Not often do you worry about such things.

I'm quite sure once lost, that man's trust is never regained. Insufferable is one word I would use to describe him from time to time.

[He sighs.]

Pain, gotten or given, does not bother her much --- and on the contrary might excite him --- so the rope you have to work with is quite extensive. But I want to ensure he does have a place where he does not need to feel guarded.

That besides, you both are cunning in your own way. I'll be watching who is the victor of your games.

I will be sure to make it clear your interests and mine are separate entities. And tread with care.

[*him much]

Even though I am going to hound you upon taking care of yourself physically, I do trust our judgement more than anyone else's, Lahabrea. I have no doubts you will do exactly as you say.

If something is of enough importance to you to warrant a mention, it is worth my care.

If you feel I am ever out of line you may say so of course.

Oh, do not worry. Ever will I be vocal.

But the circumstances are different, our abilities changed, and so perhaps must our methods follow. Your council I will listen on how to best make use of the days ahead.

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